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*The writing below were written with consideration, but maybe still contains offensive opinion, so reader discretion is advised

            The quote above from J. R. R. Tolkien, an English writer, seems fit to describe my feelings as a comer or precisely perantau in Bahasa Indonesia. Being a comer is rather frustrating because many people think of me like a newborn baby in this place called East Java, Bandung, thus they kind of treat me differently sometimes. With that, I want to just give them the quote and to leave me alone. It sounds extreme, but truthfully it is exhausting. Up to this point, there are no major events that made me being discriminated, though I can feel some sense of stereotypes to me, but prejudice is something that I do not and would not know. Therefore, this essay would be one of my revelations, as I will explain how and why there are some things which are irritating from a comer’s perspective.


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-        Opening
Good morning, everyone. Love is a universal thing. Many believe that love is what keeps us alive, in some sense. So, for sure, we can see that love is being portrayed through various products of pop culture such as songs, novels, and movies. I believe that those pop culture products reflect our society, and we can actually see the changing and shifting perspective of many aspects in our life with it. In this case, love, as the most popular and major theme in pop culture, also shifts extremely. But that is only one of the reasons of my research proposal which I’m, Linna Amanda, going to present to you today entitled “THE DEPICTION OF PLATONIC LOVE IN “LOST IN TRANSLATION.”

1.     Background: academic and personal
There are a few things of why I’m interested in proposing this research
1.       Many people do not get why “Lost in Translation” is a canon romance movie in the 00’s. Lost in Translation, released in 2003. Directed by Sofia Coppola, and starring by the infamous Bill Murray and Scarlett Johansson, and even won an Oscar for best original screenplay. It is the type of a silence and quiet movie, following the conversations in between the two main characters, and apparently some people found it boring. Which in fact, that is the highlight of the movie, the non-sexual relationship itself.
2.      It is a reflective social issues to romantic relationship in contemporary cinemas as where the kind of platonic love is now rarely to be seen. As I said before, pop culture products reflect the society we live in. In the era of 1990s until the early 2000s, relationship is gradually changing from the relationship which is started from friendship to romantic, to relationship where lust plays an important role, or the type of relationship where romantic style is a must. Thus, from this movie, I want to show how, we as human, can found love in an extremely natural way, without being staged or pushed, because I believe that there are also many aspects in love that we can rather more focus on.

2.    List previous research (bibliography)
There were numerous studies about both platonic love and lost in translation. There were five research paper and articles that I focused on before, all of them analyzes the way the cause of the relationship, and in my opinion, without clear conclusion.

3.    State the gap
None of the research focuses on the type of the relationship, but rather on the general causes of why it happens when actually by narrowing it down we can analyze the movie easier. Hence, I personally believe that the relationship is based from Platonic Love, a love without sexual desire.

4.    State the aim
So, with this my research proposal has one aim, which is:
To analyze how and why the relationship happens, through the perspective of Platonic Love.

5.    Mention the major theory
Regarding to the aim itself, my research purposes will be entirely focusing on the theory of Platonic love. The term ‘Platonic Love’ today refers to a strong, non-sexual bond. Plato recommended purely spiritual relationships as the highest form of love, though he also recommended starting with a lot of hot and sweaty gay sex.
-Kaye, S (2013)

6.    Methodology (how it will be)
Therefore, to make this research proposal happens, my method of purposes will be:
Analyzing the Textual Evidence; dialogues in the movie script
Observing the Movie Techniques such as; shots, lighting, cinematography

7.    Expectations (how t will be beneficial)
As  a contribution to the literature and philosophical field, or even social communication field. Because my research will scrutinize the relationships, started from how and why it happens, and the effect of the relationship. I believe that this will lead to a contribution to those fields.
As a reflection for the society, of what we need in a relationship, rather than what we want. Because in this era, having status in a relationship is more important than having a real bonding relationship.

-        Ending
That brings us to the end of my presentation,
I hope that my research proposal will be a good deed for the social and humanity field,
Thank you very much for your attention, have a good day.





PARAPHRASE

Poem#1: Patience Pays, Impatience Costs! by Ramdas Bhandarkar
https://www.poemhunter.com/poem/patience-pays-impatience-costs/

Life is a series of event that we cannot ever guess, so try to be patience and just live it just the way it is: do plan for the future but not expect too much, and let life decides.
We cannot dictate life, no matter how much we tried to understand and handle it, since it is neither a riddle nor a puzzle. Life is something out of hand, something that we cannot, and should not ever understand, because that is how life works: with mystery.
            A dependent child with her/his parents is equivalent to human’s relationship with life. Life consists of both nature and society, and human is a part of it. Thus, we cannot ignore the fact that we, as a part of them, must surrender to the whole to make life works.
            Overall, the poem advices to surrender to life just the way it is, which like I mentioned in the three paragraphs before.

Poem#2: I Have Learned by Courtney
http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/poem-about-trust-issues

            The poem tells us that trust is something that we have to learn and to realize; how powerful it is, how hard it is to discover, and how sometimes it is formed as lust.
            It is powerful, because it may either crush or lift you in the most possible way. Trust can take you to the most joyful state, but also to the extreme opposite of it.
            It is hard to discover, just like any other intangible emotions. So, the only way to find out is to experience it by yourself, even if it means to make your way through the ups and downs of emotions, we can and will learn about it eventually to make our own way in the world.
            Since trust is one quality that is hard to get, and we know how it may be hard to handle, we still cannot avoid it. Trust means lust, she says, and lust is a must. If that is the case, then we have to surrender, but with one caution; we may trust someone, but distinguish between the good and the evil in them, and always carefully choose the former.

INTERTEXTUALITY
            Patience Pays, Impatience Costs! by Ramdas Bhandarkar and I Have Learned by Courtney are two poems which blatantly tells about life and the emotions in it. There are two things that will be elaborated in the next paragraphs; how the two poems relate to each other and how the poems are based on my personal opinion.
The two poems relates in a way, regarding to the theme which is surrender. The first poem by Bhandarkar focuses on how important and necessary it is for us, human, to surrender to our surrounding. He pinpoints that the basic way to live is to wait, and to let life makes its way to us, such as being portrayed in the stanza “Patiently plan your life, or wait patiently for Life’s plan for you!”. The latter, also pinpoint the importance to trust something, even though we may lose hope and even trust itself. Surrendering to trust is a must, in which she says in a stanza that “trust means to lust and lust is a must”.
Both of the poems may also function as advices for our lives; how to live it and what to do with trust. We can see how they rather focus on surrendering than resisting, in which I do not 100% agree. To surrender in life is something that I rather see often, and even one author that I respect, Oscar Wilde, says in his novel “The Picture of Dorian Gray” that “The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it. In contrary, I do not see the good in it, since I experienced it myself. I believe that everything in life, with all our might, have to be balanced. Just like the last stanza in the poem I Have Learned, “Trust everyone, but not the devil inside”, which I think is confusing. How can we know the devil inside? The answer must be to be cautious, so it still imply that we cannot 100% trust someone. That is the same with the poem Patience Pays, Impatience Costs, where we could not and should not surrender to life. One anonymous quote says that “If we want to yield to the flow of the water, no. Everything that got stuck with the floods are only trash and shit.” I think it is  also good for us to be riot, with all our might to life our life, just like what Dylan Thomas, a Welsh poet, states, “Do not go gentle into that good night, rage against the dying of the light.” Nevertheless, I still believe that we should be balanced, because life is a circle of surrendering and resisting.

The poems are good in some sense, and it contains a good sense of advices for life. But still, everything depends on the person’s perspective, and personally I cannot agree with it 100%.


Analyze, Paraphrase and Comment

1.     What Is A Friend by Barbara M. Zellner : http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/a-good-friend

This poem talks about the characteristics of a good friend, of how a good friend should be: someone who is always there for us and someone who is willing to help us with anything. We can find it through the stanzas that say “someone who cares about you”, “someone who’s willing to help you”, “someone who you can talk to and trust with your problems…”, and “someone who will come to and stop you from taking your life and sit down to show you all all of the good things to live for”. We can relate this poem to one of Kahlil Gibran’s quote saying that “Friendship is always a sweet responsibility, never and opportunity,” in which I agree. At first, this poem seems hollow at the surface, since all it’s talking about is someone who basically willing, or “must” to be exact, available for us. Personally, I think it sounds selfish, and that’s why I can see why Kahlil Gibran said that it is a responsibility, rather than opportunity. Because, when we develop a relationship, there are responsibilities that we have to do in order to make it works.

1.     Broken Friendship by Anonymous : https://www.poemhunter.com/poems/friendship/page-1/7455268/

It tells the feeling of someone when their (it could be a male or a female, therefore I’m using a more general term) friend got a new lover and left them. Two people became close and make a friendship within a year as we can see on the 22nd stanza, “It amazes me how I felt so close to you in only one year.” But suddenly when the other person got a new significant other, the other one left is being left alone, which is portrayed on the last stanza, “But then you fell in love and left me behind.” The persona, who is the one who is being left cannot help but feeling hurt and angry afterwards, and we can see it on many stanzas, but specifically on the 11th and 12th stanzas, “I do not want to go through the pain again”, “I have not recovered from you.” But still, the persona tells that they want to be friend again, which is written on the 31st-33rd stanzas saying that, “Because I truly do miss you”, “You are always on my mind no matter what time”, “I want to make up for everything.” I think we can relate this poem to Kahlil Gibran’s quote, “But let there be spaces in your togetherness and let the winds of the heavens dance between you. Love one another but make not a bond of love: let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.” The poem tells about a relationship where it may seems that one person is to possessive over the other person, and I personally think that it is not a healthy relationship. I personally think that relationships should also mean freedom, besides loyalty. If we are being honest and loyal enough to each other, I think that a relationship will works just fine, just like a moving sea between the shores.

Intertextuality


            The two poems entitled What Is a Friend by Barbara M. Zellner and Broken Friendship by Shiny Shine are telling the same topic which is friendship but on two different context. The first one is all about the characteristics of a good friend and the latter is the feeling when a friend left because of another person. Actually, I found more differences rather than similarities, and from here we can see the intertextuality. The second poem, if we compare to the first poem is like the antonym. The first-fourth stanzas on the first poem says that “A good friend is someone who cares about you they are someone who will be there when you’re down”, also the 9th-11th stanzas saying that a good friend is someone that we can trust and talk to. Meanwhile, the second poem tells the contra on the 11th-15th stanzas, “I do not want to go through the pain again I have not recovered from you It angers me when I think of how much I trusted you.” It is implicitly stated that rather than being with their friend, the other person is the one who hurt them, therefore they couldn’t trust them anymore. Another thing is from the last seven stanzas saying that, “A good friend is someone who will come and stop you from taking your life and sit down to show you all of the good things,” in which we can find the contradiction on the second poem’s last paragraph, “But then you fell in love and left me behind.” From the evidences through stanzas, it is clear enough that (implicitly stated) the person is not a good friend, since they don’t have the characteristics of a friend should be, according  and comparing to the first poem.

Defining something is never easy, and to define one’s self is beyond confusion. I believe human is the most complex thing so far, and yet we make things more complex, so it’s going to be a journey to describe myself as a reader and writer, with the help of English literature discipline. With that saying, here’s the result of my pondering as an introvert human who thinks reading makes a person.
Everything has a start, and in my case, it’s Manga, a Japanese style of comic. Even though many people believe that the point of manga itself is the art rather than the story, I found myself lost in thought whenever I’m feeling the ink graved on the paper, the smell of a new fresh unwrapped paper, and etc. or maybe basically I just love books. But, whatever that feeling was, that was when I feel joyous the most, compared to other kids who watched cartoon or listened to something. Later on, unguided in the field of literature, I could still find myself standing for hours searching curiously between the dusty shelves of a local library and bookshops, searching for books that could make my mind wanders for a moment. That was the time where I thought maybe, books could help me to find my hidden unconscious self, by relating and realizing things from others’ point of view.
Without any guide, it was a real hard time for me to find what kind of books to start with, and I tried reading many genres ever since. Teen lit was a thing when I stepped into the teenagers’ world, but it appeared that romance and other kind of pop genre of novels only succeeded in making me cringe. But a real romance literature wouldn’t hurt; instead, it makes me feel warm inside (e.g. Pablo Neruda and Lang Leav). I found classic horror and thriller were more appealing, stuffs like Frankenstein, seemed wise and tough. Biography and autobiography are fun to read. Science fiction doesn’t spark my interest, despite how smart the genre seems to be. Most fictions are fine, but the ones with a whole new alternative universe with their own rules and possibility are not for me. Finally, my life changed when I read Haruki Murakami’s novel, with its own kind of indescribable fiction. Most of his novels are talking about some complex self and life contemplating in a vague way, and I relate to those genres the most on a spiritual level.
As I said before, to fully understand one’s self is the top of my complexity, and I think Haruki Murakami felt the same way. His vague story telling’s purpose, freak and confused (but cool on their own way) introverts as the main characters, irrational story-plot, really gets me as a human. By looking at the main protagonists on his stories, who are just like me, calms me down, because I’m not the only one who couldn’t see things in this life simply. Books like this are drugs to me, because it makes me brave to embrace my weirdness as an imperfect human.
We tend to see things valuably just like what you said on the class before, “read only to get knowledge”, and other things such as “this book is popular, so at least I could say I’ve read the first few chapters” is truly exhausting. Haruki Murakami is my spiritual guru, but I can’t be like this forever, embracing my own self. I believe that what you read is what you are, and by realizing that, I started to search another self-contemplating books, but not as super implicit like his. To become a better person whilst embracing my own uniqueness.
I started reading some Indonesian books which the author likes to use vulgar expressions; Djaenar Maesa Ayu, Ayu Utami, Sudjiwo Tedjo, etc. I’m a person who likes to think about my own problems more than others, and that’s why I read Indonesian literature since I can relate to it the most. What I like the most about these writing is the kind of vulgar expressions that I couldn’t find elsewhere; the truth about some nasty problems of being not merely Indonesian, but also being Indonesian women. These types of books are also contemplating life just like Murakami’s but written on a more explicit ways. It also helps me seeing Indonesian societies in a new and different point of views, and helps me how to live my life as a part of the society itself.
            Aside from those literary works, arts and literature reviews really ignites my inner self. Reading music album or concerts reviews which were written with great writing skills sometimes made me cry. To illustrate how the atmosphere on a theater performance was, is the real deal. To share your true emotions to the reader is a connection that is hard to build through alphabets to some words, and some people who know how to really use broad vocabularies so that we could feel those feelings are also artists on some levels. I think the same thing happens to the people who write conceptual writing about life pondering such as journal or any other types that exists. Because to truly understand an art is not easy, the next thing is to interpret it, and lastly we have to share that whole sensation of processing thoughts into an article is, for me, the real work.
            As I mentioned before, I’m just an unguided girl in literature world, until I decided to study English literature by the thought that this major might help me, not only in the sense of literature but also as a human being. So far, looking back to the two years that I have spent as a literature student, really overwhelmed me in a good way. For the past two years, the things that used to be vague for me started to show its shapes (like feelings, and other intangible but important things that humanity has). Studying literature is a real fun, even though sometimes it’s hard. Because apparently, by reading something is not enough, sharing the thoughts that we have and discuss it critically is much more challenging and useful. Here, I have learned that reading is not only matter for yourself, but how the things that you read affect you, and how you should and would react to it. Literature would not only change you, but also your universe and all the things that you see.
            In another aspect, I, as a person who is not emotional and skillful enough to write literary works, choose to appreciate it by sharing to others. I’d like to share the overwhelming feeling of happiness from a poem that I have just read to other people, because that would be the real happiness. I tend to observe and report about a phenomenon and discuss it on my writing. The whole emotions and thought inside me would like to reach the people who are willing to read it. As a writer, I’d like to connect to my reader by the most honest way.
In other words, I as a reader and a writer just want to be an honest self. Even after all of this, apparently keeping true to myself is the most important thing. Being an English literature student not only help me for being myself, but also help me to self-develop. What I read is what I am, therefore what I read is what I write. I read to find myself in others, to understand others, to become a better person, to share with others, and I let this cycle flows and to finally live as it is.




Linna Amanda (1405185 / 5A)

            Ever wonder why we were born in this world, the same routines repeated over and over again, and we find ourselves in a maddening boredom? It is probably because we do not have a purpose in life, and rather reaching for short term goals. We could not choose to be born in this world, but we can choose how to live this life of ours. For sometimes the melancholy struck in the middle of the night, and makes us wonder why we were born in the first place. This phenomenon happens mostly for people who are going through ‘young adult’ phase; for those who try to find a place in this enormous world. When the time we feel like we have no idea of this life, to search and to have purposes is the basic way to make our way to the future. Why and how? In this guidance essay, there are three basic elaborations of the importance of having life’s purposes: to not take anything for granted, to know our worth as an individual, and to end our life meaningfully.
First thing first, we cannot take anything for granted. Quoting Mark Manson on his article, 7 Strange Questions That Help You Find Your Life Purpose (2014),  “When People say, ‘What Should I do with my life?’ or  ‘What is my life purpose?’ what they are actually asking is: ‘What can I do with my time that is important?” The time that we were born, is the time that we have purposes, indirectly. We can reflect by looking back how our parents raised us and take nothing for granted as well. It sounds like a burden, but that is how we live our life: not only for the sake of ourselves, but also others. By this, we already get one purpose in life: to be kind and useful for others, rather than being a sleazy loser who rants about every little thing, start thinking to repay others’ kindness. Remembering that this world needs more kindness, and it is always circulating in life, we may even start from our inner circles.
The second thing is that we, as humans, have to be useful and contribute something to society, by knowing our worth. The quote, “Everyone is a snowflake; which differs from one another” is the most cliché thing, but everyone differs for a great reason. Imagine if everyone a fisherman, there will be no variety in the local food market, but when some people choose to develop a crab farm and another people are interested in oysters, for example, we can taste many things even in a seafood market. In the bigger picture, we have to applicate what we can do, and study to specialize it, and dedicate ourselves in that area. As what an anonymous quote says, “When someone knows their worth, no one can make them feel worthless”, is actually also helps us in being optimistic, and does better. It is true that there will always be someone who is better than us, but there is no wrong in helping others, because every good deeds leads to a change for a better world.
Last thing and most importantly, is that we have to work for our future. The time slowly march us into the inevitable death, so we better have to give the best out of us. Everyone expects a happy ending, admit it, but how can we be happy without even trying? As Celestine Chua, stated in her article, Why Have a Life Purpose? 5 Reasons We Should Have a Purpose, “Life purpose is the starting point of life”. To get rid of daily-routines-boredom, we have to set goals. The most easy thing is to find what we like and go for it, whether it is to be a rich and successful career-oriented person, or to be successful emotionally with a marriage, go for it. When we find that hope, take nothing for granted, and lose ourselves to it. Still on the same article, Chua stated that clear daily action aims for clear long-term goals and finally clear purpose. On the other hand, hazy random daily actions tends to be hazy random goals and leads to hazy purpose or no purpose at all. It is harder to actually find one, so we can start by doing little things for better habits, which eventually leads to a good end.
To sum up, to make our time counts, it can be started with realizing and doing good things and deed, even from the smallest details around us. To take everything kindly, to be useful, and to work for a better tomorrow; are the basic things that we need to realize so that we can start living out of boredom. When we finally live not only for today, but most importantly for the future, is when we can truly live. As Tom Thiss, an American writer, quotes that “Having a purpose is the difference between making a living and making a life.”





References:
Chua, Celestine. (2014). Why have a life purpose? 5 reasons we should have a purpose. Retrieved from https://personalexcellence.co/blog/why-have-a-life-purpose/
Maisel, Eric. (2014). Do humans have a need for meaning and life purpose. Retrieved from www.innerself.com/content/personal/happiness-and-self-help/life-purpose/10063-existensial-maturity.html
Manson, Mark. (2014). 7 Strange questions that help you find your life purpose. Retrieved from https://markmanson.net/life-purpose



 Being Persuasive

Being persuasive is not easy, to my own self and to others as well. That was what I thought at first, since I could not think of any positive thing that I like to do. So, I tried to think of something that will benefit not only my friends but also my very own self. Apparently, the depression inside me helped and the idea of having a purpose in life came. I did some research, and the theme actually fit for young adult life, thus I believed it can be elaborated into a persuasive essay.
Writing this persuasive essay was not that hard, because there were many articles and research about having a purpose in life. I considered this as important, because having evidence is the point in being persuasive. About eight hours of writing process went by, and at the end I felt a sense of relief, remembering that it would be the last type of essay for this semester’s writing class. But, overall I was not sure whether I was being persuasive enough or not.
When my friends read my essay, the thing that they always point out was grammar. Apparently it was one thing that I have not overcome, so it meant that I have to work harder. Aside from that, no one really commented on my topic, so I was not sure whether I was writing the right thing or not.
When I saw my friends’ essays, I was amazed that they have many concerned things such as health and education issues. Most importantly, the way they wrote it rather convincing, then it means that they did many research and did well. It became my thoughts that I have to work hard too, in terms of writing.
Actually, there were some disappointments when my essay was discussed with the instructor. The most important thing was about my topic, which was basically the same thing with my friends. Even though everyone said that my writing style and skeleton could be considered enough to be a persuasive essay, I was still not that sure.
To sum up, it was not easy for being persuasive. But, after all the worries, I had tried the suggestion from my essay to myself, and the most important thing was it worked. It would be a waste to just let my writing on the shelves, so I am going to put it on my blog so it could help anyone who needs it.

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            When we ran out of ideas, what can we do? Take a break and take a deep breath. There are various ways to do it, for example going somewhere or listening to music, basically to find solitude. The latter tends to be hard for people residing in the cities, with fast-paced lifestyle, and the business of all the people around them. Then, many people believe that nature is a good solution to it, and so they make gardens and parks alongside skyscrapers in the midst of the town. The Japanese also hold on to that belief, and this can be fulfilled by staying in a Zen garden. It is a type of dry rock garden, filled with only rocks and sands arranged aesthetically in a motion of water ripples without the addition of actual water. Actually, it is seen more for its aesthetic values compare to its function, even though originally coming from Buddhist religion who believes that solitude is the start of a peaceful mind, thus they used it as an area for contemplation. We have to see through the philosophical meanings of it, so that the reason of why it is being specified as an art is revealed, and we can see it through three aspects; the arrangement, the colors, and the type which is a dry garden. Zen Garden is the answer for urban people to not only gain solitude, but also an art that is enticing to both mind and eye.
To start with, Zen garden is being portrayed as the representation of the natural world. Since this is a dry type of garden, there are some must-items to be displayed so that it can be called as a Zen garden; light grey sands, black/dark grey rocks in large or medium sizes, and a little bit of green grass neatly cut and shaped. The rocks are portrayed as mountains, the neat grass as the island, and the sands covering all the open area in between them are the water of the ocean. The placement of everything was undergoing the process of philosophical ideas, where even one crooked side of a rock could mean the unbalance aspect of life. The sand is often shaped circled around the rock in a water motion-pattern, to balance the natural character where the sands were supposed to be solid, but also showing its dynamic characteristics. Looking at a Zen garden can become a self-reflection of our surroundings in life.
Second, the colors of Zen Garden are already effective to calm its visitors. The color of light gray sands and black rocks mixed perfectly like a gradation, Yin and Yang alike, but with a hint of green grass. J. A. Young and Rachel Klein, gardening expertise, stated that “Yin is dark and feminine; Yang is light and masculine. They are night and day; they are opposite sides of a coin; both are necessary to make up a whole. A Zen garden aims to incorporate many Yin and Yang features into the garden.” The use of calm colors; grey and black, with a fresh green on some corners, is easy for our eyes to adjust to in the most natural way.
Third, the nonexistent of water meant to help gaining complete silence of the mind. Rather than using water like other usual gardens, the Buddhist believes that meditating and shutting our mind from the outside world tends to be more successful in gaining the peacefulness of a mind. This is one of the reasons why there shouldn’t be any growing plants in a Zen garden, but only neatly-shaped grass, assuming the wind may shake the leaves and make sounds. But apparently, in some modern Zen garden this aspect is being neglected, where the addition of small fountains and growing plants are found, which depends on the person’s preference. After all, seeking solitude is a matter of, and for, our inner self.
Overall, to blend with nature and gain solitude is not so hard for people living in the middle of big cities. There are a few things that we can find in a Zen garden; the aesthetic form of neat and balanced mixed of rocks and sand, with the philosophical meanings which reflects our life, its contrast yet calming colors to our eyes, plus the sound of our own hearts. All of these aspects of a Zen garden will put our mind at ease, and start living again.


References:

N, N. (2009). What is a Zen Garden?. Retrieved from http://ohmyapt.apartmentratings.com/what-is-a-zen-garden.html

Young & Klein. (2016). Elements of a Zen Garden. Retrieved from http://www.doityourself.com/stry/zengardenelements

My Writing Process to “Zen Garden: An Art to Gain Solitude”
Ideas often come like lightning, suddenly, yet momentarily. In my case, that sudden ideas was mixed with personal feeling. People say that you will do best by doing what you can and  also love, and I could totally relate to that saying. The idea of writing an explanatory about Zen garden came because I fell in love with a character from a game, named Zen. Whenever I came to anything called Zen, I cannot help but felt content, and so I decided to write about Zen garden.
Rather than the first task, which was about personal response essay, I liked this one better and find a joy in writing it. So, when I found myself finished writing, I felt a sense a relief. All I am worry about was whether the meaning that I try to convey will get through or not.
Maybe because we have did it many times, I did not feel anything when my friends were reading my draft and commenting on the back of the paper. I knew that whatever they wrote would bring the best of my writing, something that an online corrector and editor could not mention.
When I saw my friends’ writing, I was amazed. It seemed that my friends also wrote what they consider as interesting to them. There are some topics that did not seems academic, but apparently they successful in writing through an academic perspective. All I could say is “Good job”.
At first, I was embarrassed to know that my essay will be discussed in the front of the class. But apparently, everything went smooth. There were some corrections and additions that I have to work on, but it is good that everyone could learn from others’ mistakes.
            Overall, I had a great time in writing this expository essay. It all might start from personal reasons, until finally ended with learn together with my classmates.


(Linna Amanda/5A1/1405185)

Social criticism in literary works is always intriguing. Pop and romance themed novels and literature are often put on the popular section in Indonesia’s bookstores, meanwhile social themed literature are waiting to be picked in some dusty corners. These kinds of books are maybe written with vulgar language as a way to criticize the society explicitly rather than being polite. I personally prefer books with social critics themes than the romantic one, therefore I choose a prose by Emha Ainun Nadjib entitled “Lelaki Ke 1000 Di Ranjangku” which sparks my interests to response to. The story goes around the perspective of a prostitute who bluntly think about her life and its ups and down. Here, I am going to response how to see a life of a prostitute from their own perspectives.
“BH” by Emha Ainun Nadjib is one of his prose collections, and “Lelaki Ke 1000 Di Ranjangku” is one of the stories. Within 10 pages, a prostitute leads the reader going through many thoughts inside her head, with her own narration; starting from how she ends up as a hooker, to how she finally accepts her condition as a sex worker. There is so much going on in this short story, besides the actual plot in which she tries to sleep after a long day of work serving for numerous men, but her minds are rambling into many other related stuff; how she thinks of those men who used her, how she thinks that being a prostitute is the same as Kiai on some levels, how she blames people for her current job. Until the next day, still lacking of sleep, the 100th men came to her room. Apparently, the man is a journalist and put her on the cover of a newspaper afterward, which takes her to the top.
            Personally, this short story is fascinating in so many ways. Firstly, as a usual college student and a daughter, the perspective of a prostitute is so intriguing. I have never been into the “dark” side of life and I do not really want it, so this is a new point of view to think of. Secondly, the main character, the sleepless prostitute, has so much irony in her way of thinking. For example, she likes finding herself on the cover of the newspaper which makes her the number one prostitute in the area, but in the end she said that she could end up her life whenever she wants to, which shows some kind of depression. Third, the fact that she keeps numbers of her visitors also shows how desperate she actually is, while counting days to lament but also cheering to. Lastly, the fact that she compares her work with Kiai’s just shows how human she is; wanting to show their good nature despite how bad her job seems to be.
            When I read this prose, the first thing that came to mind is another author who often uses vulgar language and rather brought up sexual themed stories namely Djenar Maesa Ayu. Still on the same page of Emha, Djenar also has one prose entitled “Namaku….”. It tells the story of a prostitute, but from the perspective of the daughter. A girl grew up with her mom as the role model, by seeing how her mother would react to things; she started to implements it on her life. There are a few things; similarities and differences that I can pinpoint from the two proses. First, they share the same theme about being a prostitute, but rather different because of the perspective or point of view; the prostitute herself, and the daughter of one. The humanity value that they have is practically the same; they want to feel some rights in what they do. The one in Emha’s likes to think of herself as good as Kiai on some levels, meanwhile the one in Djenar insists that the main character’s mom and her friends do the job because that is what they can do to feed their children. Another relevant aspect is where both prostitutes blame other men for what they are currently doing, in this cases it was their husband who left them.
            The last point from the last paragraph is what I want to highlight in this response; patriarchy in Indonesian family system. First of all, patriarchy, according to Merriam-Webster Dictionary is a noun defined as a family, group, or government controlled by a man or a group of men, and a social system in which family members are related to each other through their fathers. To be more specific, in study.com, McCallister as the instructor, defines a partriarchal system as a system “where men are in authority over women in all aspects of society.” Patriarchal in the aspect of family itself, according to Kraemer in his book “The origins of fatherhood: An ancient family process”, “the fathers (or father figures) hold authority over the women and the children. Looking from another perspective, the feminist theory, claims that patriarchy is “an unjust social system that enforces gender roles and is oppressive to both men and women It often includes any social mechanism that evokes male dominance over women.” For short, patriarchy is a system where experts and sociologists believe that men dominate women in every aspect of life. Now, relating it to the two novel that I am responding to, both of the prostitutes in both novels blame men for making them selling themselves and hate them because of that. In the context of Indonesia, most men are automatically being put on the highest throne of a small organization that we can call as family. Here, men are responsible for making money and providing foods and other essential life stuffs for the rest of the family, and for me that is exhausting. This exhausting system is a way that makes women dependent and rather spoiled. It is true that men have the responsibility for their children and have to support their life, but the way women blame on them is too much. For me, an individual have to be independent regardless of their gender, and that is why blaming men is not an answer at all. Women do not need to sell their body to trade it with food, in fact no one needs to, but I think this phenomenon happens for another reason. Women in Indonesia still do not have much privilege like men do in terms of work. People still think that women belong to the kitchen, and men belong to the office. This system is so destroying because does not only makes women lost their way to get jobs and to depend on their men, but also leads to the next step of self-destruction by women. I am not saying that it is all on men’s fault, but it is more to our system as a whole for each gender.
            The two short stories that I choose for this response essay, “Lelaki Ke-1000 Di Ranjangku” and “Namaku….”, are such intriguing material for my critical thinking, by talking about one same theme, from different perspectives, but also with some relevant matters that we can actually relate to the real world.












My Writing Process: A Response to “Lelaki ke 1000 Di Ranjangku” by Emha Ainun Nadjib
            “I had to review something cool” was what I had in mind when I started doing this assignment. The term cool in my mind mean underrated literary works, not the popular ones or what would they call mainstream. Popular literary works are not really my thing, and also I want to share a perspective about some must read-unpopular literary works to my friends who would read my response. Rushing to my bookshelves, I picked some of my books to see what would be interesting to give response to, and the theme of a prostitute’s life in Indonesia caught my attention. So, after I re-read the two short stories, I started the writing process and ended it in about three days, but the process after it was something else.
            I felt a sense relief when I printed the first draft, even though I knew that it still lack of many aspects and I still have to revise it. But, it also means that I still have more room to improve my writing and I looked forward to see how my friends responded to it.
            When my friends were reading my draft and commenting on the back of the paper, I couldn’t help but to be curious. I was wondering things like, ‘what are they going to comment?’, ‘do they find my writing shallow?’, ‘I am so sorry that they have to read numerous grammatical errors’, ‘it is kind of embarrassing’, ‘is it boring?’. After all, I just set those minds aside by thinking that their comments would bring the best of my writing, and I would openly discuss with them.
            To be honest, I do not feel any extravagant feeling when writing my friends’ drafts, besides learning one and two things from their writing. One thing that I noted was how my friends’ writings developed. We have been on the same class for three years, and I am quite familiar with their style of writing and speaking, I saw that they all have better and well-written drafts now. Some people even shocked me with how they put their ideas into their writing, and I couldn’t help but proud, because it means that we are growing together.
            At first, I had no idea at all how is the discussion will going. Apparently, it went smoother that how I expected it to be. I realized the things that I have to work on; grammatical errors which are my eternal enemy, the placement of words and dictions. After I get out of the room, I felt like I just had a counseling session for my paper. Not in a frustrating way, but more in an enlightening way.

Overall, the whole process of making this response essay is a journey. Not only I learned how to write well, but also learned how to help my friends, so that we can develop together.
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